So one of my main goals this year is to get healthy (again). I met with a dietician and got a meal plan outline. I put in all the work to plan all my meals and snacks for this week. I was following it to a T until about 3pm. I was tired and hungry, and I gave into the carb cravings. I'm supposed to be having 1500-1600 calories per day. This evening I went ahead and calculated everything I had eaten today. It came to 3000... No. Wonder. I'm. Fat. I feel so disappointed in myself. Am I really so weak a person that I can't even invest in my own health? I feel so discouraged. I'm disgusted by my own body, and it is taking all the strength I have to not fall back on my eating disorder and purge. I haven't purged at all in the last 12 months. But I've also gained 50 pounds. It's really hard for me to believe that being morbidly obese is healthier than what I was doing (because it was working to keep me under 200 pounds). Maybe tomorrow will be better.
that is really cool that you want to get healthy agin so are you healty now
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